the union of the earth

aren’t they beautiful?  they are a gift from your heart.  thank you. 

everyday i will strive to fulfill my promise.  i will never give up.  you know that much is true.

Lord Charles said i was a quitter.  if that were true i would have been dead long ago.

but i do have a very foul temper. remember Disney’s Beauty and the Beast?
‘and control your temper!!! ‘ said the cursed company of the cursed beast.

beauty is in the house .  behave yourself,  haelrazor.  behave yourself and be true to your word.

so be it

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do you love me?

do you think i’m dramatic??? nevermind. i know the answer. of course i’m dramatic. i’m living out life’s drama/comedy/action flick. or maybe ‘clandestine’ is a better word than ‘action’ for my recent experiences.

clandestine is kind of boring and way too dramatic. i guess that’s what finally got to pat. all the secrecy. everybody wants a peek inside.

well, you know, old habits die hard. the greatest of life’s treasures have always been hidden away. actually i never agreed with that either.

you want to know something else? why is it that people hide their habits, their follies, their hearts, and their mud, blood and tear streaked faces behind facades that only serve to deceive…even when meant to represent the truth?

it is for fear and doubt, of course. we fear to be judged, condemned, ridiculed, or scorned. or worse. more than anything we fear to be dismissed. we all doubt that we will be truly loved.  typically humans don’t offer real love to each other.

have you truly loved someone today? start by truly, honestly loving yourself. love who you are because you are beautiful. and i would know.

i have always seen you. i have seen you in the light and i have seen you in the  dark. i love you at all times for life. no matter what.

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to no end does it part…

i look at this picture often. my mother and my daughter.  how very precious they are to me. i am so grateful that i could give this gift to my mother. she loves my daughter as i love my daughter. this is true love.

my mother has always been possessed by an entity-an unintended curse passed down from her mother. the entity hates me. thus it appears that my mother hates me enough to kill me.

but this is an illusion. the entity is easily mastered once i target the real problem. and the problem is the way i feel about the appearance…

the appearance is that i am thoroughly hated by the one person in the world who should love me unconditionally.

this feeling, this attitude. is selfishness on my part. i do not require my mother’s love to survive. my mother, on the other hand, will need me and all the love i can muster if she is to survive the intention of the entity’s master.

may all the pain you have ever known be released. may you go forth free from the sorrow that has bound you,  dear mother.

do you know i love you enough to die for you? right now. right here. anytime. anywhere. but now i will love you enough to gratefully continue this life until the job is finished. evil only lives if you reverse life’s intent, which is to give and take in balance following nature’s example.

so then may evil be returned to live in the light of god that never fails to make all things right for those who serve that light well. and even for those who don’t. freedom is for all.

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speak locomotive speak: rattle the cell

finally i feel almost nothing. i love it. like a robot. that’s not to say i don’t cry or get mad anymore. but it’s not so powerful and seems quite distant at times, like i’m just doing it from habit rather than heart.

i was told that i don’t have a heart. thank god. humans only break hearts. i’m done with broken. no more broken promises.  i will honor and respect you. respect me or be erased from my life.

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the silent watch

silence does not come easy for haelrazor.  silence is where i need to be.  my ego is a brutish little braggart.  it’s the thing that i keep locked up in the attic. but the bitch gets mean when i let her out. maybe i shouldn’t let her out. or maybe i should open the  door to the cellar and lock her up down there.

i mean, I can’t just let her loose. right?  not unless I’m ready to set her in line with the tick of time as we dance across the flame of life…

my day is started.  are you ready to go out for a sky–walk haelrazor? tis the tide of rigbt-use -ness
that makes every destination a possibility.

the shiner within

every time i get hit in the gut i can see the damage in a photo if i take the a pic right after the incident. it looks like i have a shiner here.  you could blame it on lighting and effects.  but I’ve seen the shiner before…

it is an emotional bruise. my camera knows me well.  would that you could know me also.  but i will carry on without wanting what will not be given.  i will carry on for the father. for the father i will always get back up. no matter what. i go down only to rise again.  what doesn’t kill me…i give to the father.

far beyond driven

what in god’s name did i do to deserve such an insane method of extermination?

i guess i must be blinded to my own bad, bad self. right now i feel so selfish and petty. i have nothing good to say.

gotta rise above it. people will never be there to help me until i do what i promised to do. so i will find the door….no  matter what.

if i disappear from existence at least i won’t have to feel like this again.

i am a freak. works for me. i am happy to be able…

and i thank you for all you do. i am truly happy to be at your service.

i know you

everyday i wake to the same altered reality. everyday it gets weirder. what will i do today? prepare what is left of me for departure.

i must decide what to take and what to release. i must determine to love my loved ones without cessation every moment of the day. the love must remain steady and immovable regardless of how much they hurt me.

i am moving away from everyone so i can be what everyone needs. i am finding myself by losing me.  i am finding you by letting go. i am being powerful by being nothing. i am being strong by the humility i carry in the place of my ego.

i am going home. my home is with those who know me. those who know me not i will protect from the silence. i am the silent watcher. i am fallen. i am risen. i am your slave. i am your freedom.

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fire in the hole

i have always known that one day we would face the forces of hell but i thought that hell would have more honor. always have i judged others by what i would do. what a fool. now i must see them as they have been, transform them into what they need to be, that all may become now all-one.

there is no religion higher than truth

thank god! i have finally lost my religion. or should i say that it was laid atop the funeral pyre of your kind heart and set into an infernal blaze by the expression of your love.

of course i am being sarcastic. i have earned the right to say it like it is even if i choose to make fun of it all.

my religion was the biggest lie i have ever perpetuated. and you would know. you have been witness  to many of my whopper tales i’m sure.

the first order of the day is honesty. man that’s tough. what if someone found out how bad i have been? what if nobody liked me anymore?

who gives a shit?

i know you don’t so i will say it like it is…

you  have been my religion. you and all your kind. i have loved you more than i loved my father…

i went to hell for breaking the first commandment and i still didn’t get it. but i get it now. thank you. i needed that.

peace with you.

i know you will need the peace i bring even if you don’t want it yet.

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the silence awakens

sometimes i wonder if i will ever know life again.  this place where i exist is only temporary.  i know i must make the most of every moment.  for god. for the elementals. for all.  i am one for all.  i am all for one. peace be with you. and remember that i am with you always as i have always been that I AM. we are one nation  under elohim. what we believe is irrelevant. 

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what did you do now???

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aaarrrggghhh!!!

and i ain’t no freakin pin cushion neither.  have you no manners whatsoever???

not on bleach day, dudes!

do you know how long it took to pull the color with your bad vibrations flying around?  That’s totally not cool.  don’t you ever have a sunday off? 

where’s the memo?

i’d also like the 411 on this thing. 

if you’re gonna blast me with it then i want the scoop.  no clandestine ‘can’t tell cuz I’d have to kill ya’  crap.  we already know the score on what your intent has been.  have you no heart whatsoever?

where’s your invitation?

what am i?
target practice!
get a life!
your own life!
have a nice freakin’ day.

the renunciation

i was fooled again. the fool was stupid.  i really thought he loved me.  even he thought he loved me. he loved the home i had.  he loved the promise of a better life. 

during the move he began to turn away. i acted the bitch. frequently.  he always did bring out the worst in me.  now i know why women are so vicious.  it is for love or lack thereof…

i don’t want to be alone and i will be if i don’t let go. with him i discovered the meaning of lonely.  i was more lonely than i had ever known. 

he was sent to kill me.  yes i have always known.  stupid fool. yes i have been this often. far too often. forgive me. please. forgive me…

i got even with him tho. yes i did. i gave him life. and i gave him hope.  may he use it wisely…

peace be with you, my son. for i am already gone.

i am gone…for this is my going out. i am going all out to become now all one. but remember i am with you always even unto the end…but of course there never is an end…

to no end does it part says the lord of the one son. 

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silence the sorrow

haelrazor on alert

as time has slipped by so have i slipped into another state of being, a whole new level of thinking and feeling. it still blows me away. i could easily walk down the road  to hop that mysteriously well timed long train that offers a uniquely different whistle to accompany my every mood.

i call her orion. she is the night train. the day train. the crazy train. the take me home, it’s been a long time coming train. she is both enemy and friend.  she is me, the zorrinator, on steroids. the badass comforter who never meant to be bad.

i have suffered enough to atone for my sins. i no longer need to prove that i am good. i am that i am. that’s all i need if i truly want to be free. it’s all i’ll ever need. now is the time ‘to BE’.

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the key of the kind to be known

from the door there comes a key that brings peace

may peace be with you…

may you breathe in time to the hallowed song of creation.

‘open the door’, you say.

‘be kind to each other, for once in your life be kind’, i reply…

be kind, be kind, be kind….
please…be kind…

remember this for a moment thru-out all time.

be kind, remember how precious is your life…

remember this and you will thrive.

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What Is It?

the light of god never fails.

Source of Inspiration

In desperate moments
scorching truth is needed,
not convincing arguments.
When the firebrand of truth
burns into our souls, we
must heed its message or
doom ourselves to great
sorrow. These moments
come rarely…use them
well, my friends.

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death has no power where life stands indestructible

Be the Machine

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bumps in the road? see a launch pad….

I love this job.  People hate me.  Occasionally they might like me but typically not for long especially now that i have no more tolerance for kissing ass. i’m just lousy at playing the ‘it’s all good’ game when it’s anything but good.

Oops!!! there I go thinking of dear ol’mom again. god bless her hateful heart. she was in on the scheme to have me whacked. did you know that? of course you did…

‘Just love her’ I hear you say.  Yeah, yeah, I get it already. love mother. love mother dearest for she is the dearest mother i’ve had yet. sad but true that. love mother. uh-huh. love mother. uh huh. love mother ok. got it. check. 

Never am I understood. the more I reveal my true self the less I make sense to this old sick in the head senseless world.

Do you think it will ever get any better? will it, mother??? will it ever get better??? i love you with all my heart! i always have and i always will, as god is my witness i speak the truth…now give me a fucking answer!!!

‘Yes,  yes’,  I hear her whisper.  ‘Yes, yes’, I answer. there is an echo. it is forgiveness-the most powerful weapon of defense ever known. 

Yes, yes!!! it will get better. yes, it will. I am living out my own past creation at this very moment. All I have to do is change the appearance by the vision consciously and continuously projected in the place of the appearance.  Simple, simple, k.i.s.s. (keep it simple stupid)

wow! do you think that i may have finally graduated from playing it stupid??? time will tell. it always does. but you know time is running out…

Become the great command in action. become the great command that sets all life free. try it out. try me for i am elohim born. i bring you my soul. try it on and see what i mean. 

Know it.  Feel it.  Be it.  Do it. Prove it. Use it. Use it. Use it. Command life in the name of elohim love, wisdom and power and watch life jump as high as you can imagine. 

trippin’ the dimensions

This is our new way for we have walked thru the veil. sometimes we might forget but there will be many, many reminders. You can bet on that.

The power of the great command is in our hands now.  What shall we do with it?  Be grateful to know that I AM is master over these wayward outer selves. 

Then what? 

Whatever our hearts desire so long as it brings no harm to another.

What a challenge!  Do you think we can handle it?

pushing back the black ops

I made this before the mania began. Perhaps you will see as i have seen stranger than strange days that have come to pass and you will wonder how I made it work in spite of myself. I pray. constantly. in the way that I learned from God himself. May you hear his voice and know him as I have been privileged to know him. for even in the midst of creating hell he will be there to guide you and help you to make it a hell worth all the pain and suffering. and so it is…

p.s. i apologize for the crappy sound quality. i got emf coming in from every direction. so…there’s nothing for it mr. frodo but to have a haelrazor day.

i am the night..the day am i

Always the tough guy, starting up a fight.  You are the most miserable being on this planet and still you do nothing to better your situation.  Oh I know, I know…you got yourself fooled again.  That makes two of us. you still think you can win it all for the dark side and I believe that i will  find love and acceptance on this planet…

But without the light how are you going to appreciate the darkness? Without the darkness how can one appreciate the light? we are one. like it or not. all appearances aside…the game is over. take a bow and shine like the star you have become, little brother. 

toons are cool are they not?

OK now the jig is up folks. I know you’re all pretending this ain’t happening…but you have noticed the shift. You just don’t wanna admit it for fear of being labeled “yo looney toons” but we did grow up on looney toons so be fearless like a toon should be…cause we are writing the script, baby. So, let’s make it a hit. Do it just because you can.