please go away. please leave me alone. why must you insist on this massacre of my existence? what did i do to you? what are you doing to me? how did i get to this place? what happened to the place i used to know as my beloved home? i must have sensed it when i left colonel’s house. that must be why it was so difficult to let go.
i don’t want to die. but i don’t really want to go on like things have been. there is only one way out…thru the door. i am the door. can i really do this? either way i enter the unknown. then again that is where i came from. in the end it’s all good-it’s all god. somehow i will find the strength to let go. somehow i will survive.