All my Life I have been afraid, yet not so much of what goes bump in the night..rather I have been afraid that I would never be truly loved by all those whom I have known.
What if they think I’m crazy? What if they think I’m weird? What if they are afraid of what they see? What if they don’t like what I say? What if they don’t think of me at all, or if they should…will their thoughts be foul?
What if I just stopped being afraid? What if I throw my soul out there for all the world to see? Would they still be able to love me? Do I love what I see?
These are the questions that haunt me as I walk through this lonely world. Yet I am tired of being constantly afraid. I am tired of being so very lame. I am tired of playing this ridiculous game of the lost soul.
I would much rather be strong. Strong enough to be real. Strong enough to be true. Strong enough to conquer every demon within and without~no matter what. Strong enough to stand, face, and conquer whatever may come without wasting a moment.
If I can face myself, if I can look into the Eyes of God, if I can look into the Eyes of the Great Ones and not feel ashamed, then I might…just maybe…I might be worth a damn. Then maybe I can be at Peace again…and know the love that I have so often felt for this world.
So, if by chance I have the opportunity to make right all that I’ve done wrong, then I will finally know true love and joy everlasting…I will have come back home…to the one place where I belong.
This is the journey we are on together, and together we must stand. Together we can conquer anything that has ever dared to break the Heart of God…the Hearts of all of those whom you have ever loved.
Many Blessings and happy days ahead for those whom I have loved and for all those whom I have yet to know and love…may this be the beginning that never ends. Amen